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I hate the one that i love the most. What should i do?

First Issue:

- should i forget it?
- Should i ignore it?
- its bothering me.. srsly..
- because i hate the one that i love and respect the most..
- i cant believe that the one did something like that to me..
- wth.
- FML

Second Issue:

- i srsly dont knw how..
- i just hate it so much..
- i really wanna reject ur request..
- I cant believe that i actually agreed..
- wth.. just let me go..
- yeah i know.. you cant..
- so yeah FML

Ciao

No regrets.

Spm is over. Finally. (:

Yup! No regrets.

Hope i can get good results larh! :D

Hmm.. I am going to become so busy after spm!

lol! its a good thing right? (:

I am going to learn japanese! wuahahaha!! xD

This week is going to be a busy week! lol

Thursday: Gathering - the spm skype group

Omg.. this is insane!

T_T I am so worried now..

alot of ppl keep asking me what i am worrying about.. ==

geez! A lot to worry about larh kay?

1. Will ppl ffk?

2. Will they go back early?

3. will the gathering be bored?

4. will everyone talk?

5. do what there?

sigh.. hope i can sleep well tonight.. ==

Friday: Gathering - 5C 2010

Thank you so much MK for organizing this gathering!

(: muah love u gf! (:

I am so looking forward to this gathering! (:

weeeeeee..

Saturday: Midvalley Edu Fair

== yeah.. edu fair

lifeless

Sunday: PWTC Facon Edu Fair

== Yeah.. another edu fair

lifeless

so yeah! ==

I am still comparing Sunway and Taylors..

Which one is better? hmm :/

I mean for ADP programme larh..

Which one is better? (:

To: Someone (Kitty)

I am going to lose a bff again. lol.. I feel sad larh srsly.. 

i mean.. i am fine.. (:

But nvm larh.. Since to u i aint that important anymore..

Thank you for treating me so nice b4 (:

will nvr ever forget u! 

i knew it.. knew that it will become like this..

cuz u are a guy ma.. guys arr.. is like that one..

nono.. i am not sad.. dont worry (:

because.. u said the same old things like what the other normal guys will say..
because.. you did the same old things like what the other guys did.. 
i am so prepared for it ard.

You said: Yvonne u can trust me.. i wont hurt you.. wont leave you..

at least i will be ur bff forever! (: 

lol.. stop the crap.. u are just like the other guys..

thank you so much.. srsly.. you make me lose more faith in guys..

guys are not trustable.. srsly.. even guy bff also cannot trust..

oh wait.. did u even take me as ur bff?

or i am so stupid enough to think of it that way?

I am alright.. dont worry.. (:

thank you for teaching me a lesson! (:

You are a nice guy! (: u are nice really.. (not being sarcastic)

no matter how nice u are.. u are still.......................... a guy.........

Yvonne


Sons and daughters.. (: If u are reading this.....
haha i am alright! dont worry so much! 
Muah! (:

-No Title-

CAN YOU PLEASE LOOK AT ME WHEN I TALK TO YOU?

CAN YOU PLEASE ANSWER ME WHEN I ASK YOU QUESTIONS?

CAN YOU PLEASE STOP STARING AT THE STUPID COMP WHEN I TALK TO YOU?

CAN YOU PLEASE STOP ALL THE STU*** ACT LIKE A TEENAGE WHEN YOU ARENT?

CAN YOU PLEASE NOT IGNORE ME WHEN I TALK TO YOU?

I HATE INTERNET.

I FREAKING HATE THE INTERNET AND COMPUTER.

YOU ARE SO FREAKING LIFELESS.

SRSLY. HOW CAN YOU STARE AT THE COMP WHOLE DAY JUST FOR THAT STUPID FB?

HOW CAN U WASTE MONEY TO BUY THAT STUPID IPHONE JUST FOR THAT STUPID FB?

DO U KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE IT?

DO U KNOW HOW FREAKING FRUSTRATED I AM?

I CANT FREAKING TELL ANYONE ABOUT THIS!

EVERYONE IS LIKE THE SAME.

A ON COMP FOR DOTA.

B IPAD EVERYDAY

C FB EVERYDAY

D ASTRO EVERYDAY
E IPONE EVERYDAY

OMG. WTH? DONT U GUYS HAVE A LIFE?

I HATE I HATE INTERNET. EVERYONE IS FREAKING ANTI-SOCIAL NOW.

WTH!

YOU GUYS ARE SO LIFELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO LIFELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO LIFELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO LIFELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SRSLY! 

i cant stand it anymore..

i will collapse anytime......................

Its impossible to defeat a person who never give up!

Dear Bloggie,

I am feeling weird and confused. :(

I will be having SPM this year. I am aiming for straight A's. I know i can do it. But i am afraid. I am really afraid. What if i cant get straight A's? I will let my family down. I must set a role modal for my brother and sister. I must make my parent proud. I cant afford to lose, I cant afford to not get straight A's. I must get straight A's due to plenty of reasons. What if i cant? 

I have lots of dreams. I wanna go to Japan to do some short courses. But they are too expensive for me. I wanna go to UK to do my A-level. The tuition fees are too expensive for my dad to pay. (Eventhough i got 50% scholarship) I wanna go to Columbia for some volunteer job. My dad said he will be worried. I wanna do some part time job after SPM. My dad said he prefers me to go for January intake for A-level.

I am tired of putting effort. I need straight A's for SPM to get 100% scholarship for A-level in ATC. Then 3 A's for Alevel so that I can get another 100% scholarship for my first year degree. I am doing 3 subjects in a year time. Of course i know i can do it. I have no doubt in that. Its just that, I am tired. I wanna relax. Spm is taking my life away. 

My family is not poor, but not rich either. I just don't wanna burden my parent anymore. They have paid so much for me to study in a Private High School. I must not burden them anymore. To let me study in such an expensive school, my younger brother is force to study in some Chinese independent school. I must not waste my parent's money anymore. The money they have should be used on my brother's education.

Life has too much regrets. But still, I am looking forward to my future! Eventhough i am tired of putting effort, I will still do my best so that my life has NO regrets! So do you! :D SPM, I will definitely take you down! Bang Bang! :D I will not be defeated! So ppl, DONT GIVE UP! Do ur best! ^^

P.S: Leave a comment if you are facing any troubles or problems. I might not be able to help you a lot i do believe that writing it down will definitely make you feel better. (: I can't promise to solve your problems but I can promise... You won't have to face them alone.

Yvonne

I am so disappointed in you!

Hello, I just came back from Penang. (:
Ee Lynn went there too.. But too bad, we didnt get to see each other.. ):
but i did have fun! (: haha
Will upload the pictures here soon..
yeah.. soon.. (: hahaa

hmm.. i didnt buy anything from Penang..
sorry ya! :D hahaa..
Tomorrow have extra class.. (:
Haha.. Hope i will have fun!

Liean is now in Australia!
I MISS YOU!!!!! ):
Buy presents! :D hahahaa
Hope you have fun! :D

Well i guess thats all! :D
Bye

First you,
True fren, I wonder what is that...
Yeah, I am talking bout you..
I am tired already..

Second you,
You are just do different..
in the other word - weird..
I am sorry.. but i just dont like you..

Dear "brother",

Hey, cheer up! I know how you feel, because i went thru this before.. Its hard, its tough.. But i am here for you.. I will always back you up! BUT You got to go thru this no matter what.. I know you miss her alot.. Let her go if she doesnt feel the same way.. Long way to go yo! :D

Yvonne

Its impossible to forget bout you....

.... but i will make it possible!

its late already,
i am feeling sleepy,
all of our memories,
appear in my mind suddenly,
the one who is in your arm now is not me,
nvm, as long as you are happy,
then i will not worry,
i love you honey.

Yvonne :D

sometimes i am confused..
why is everything like that?
i tot it shud be like that? but why it turn out to be like that?
i am so confused..
what i want is just....... i tot i did the same thing to u?
why? ARHGHGHGH i hate being emo.. srsly..

EMO? Get away!!

i hate ppl being emo.. in a emo mood..
and yet i am emo.. wth.. -.-
i hate those who have no confident in themselves..
and now.. i totally have no confident in myself..

wth is wrong with me?!! =.=
arghh..

okay i will cheer up.. :)
umm final is going to finish!
hurray! :) still got one more subject to go!
PHYSICS! GOD please gv me luckssssssssssssssssss.. :)

today singing is not so great..
haha.. teacher taught me until she wanna die de..
i still don get the right way to sing that song..
sienn.. hmph..
going to pray ltr.. at 12am start.. i guess when i reach home..
it will be around 2 to 3 o clock.. GOSH..

alright.. i gtg.. :)
haha bye bye.. will update more often.. :)

I feel like scolding you!

what do u feel when u are force to quit something u love most?

Moral Project.. X.X

i am doing the damn moral project..
omg!! it is damn wasting my time!!
arghhhh!!!

Well i am not suppose to say so much bout this.....

http://blueypang.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!5E1FA7BA72D56CD8!372.entry?sa=383833602

lol.. just take a look at this..
ENJOYY!! this is exactly what i feel man!!
heeheeee..
gotto go back to my nightmare man..
@.@

wasting my time! argh

ciao.. :)

I think..... its time for me to forget bout you..
eventhough i like you from the bottom of my heart....
in the same time.. i feel sorry for him... sorry.. but i will try my best..

:( Alex's Chu Birthday Party

Damn it! I did not attend his party..
i guess i miss alot of fun.. :'(
srsly.. omg omg!

cuz of some stupid reason!
I am sorry Alex! :'(

its a short post! so yeah!
ciaoz!!

P.S:I m addicted to The Sims!
P.P.S:It reminds me of you AGAIN..

I have no choice..
But to let go..
Even though i dont want to..

My First Love

I don knw what to write here..
I just..... don understand why you can take things so easily?
U love me alot? I don thk so?

and thx to someone..
without her.. i guess may be we wont break up..
may be i shudnt put the blame on you BUT
I just don like you..
imagine i kip on texting YOUR bf! and massage your bf's back!

I am now trying vr vr hard to forget bout you..
I cant sleep well every night..
i rely on you alot..
i knw i must learn to be more independent..
i know i can live without you.. even though i am still learning to live without you..

in your heart.. i am nothing..
i am so disappointed.. i am vr sad..
i will learn to let go and to forget bout you..

even though i still love you

We officially break up de..
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We officially break up de..
We officially break up de..
We officially break up de..
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I hate you TWO!

i am gving a chance to you and to myself

everything changes..

i don knw.. may be not..

i thk too much?

i am starting to get tired..

this is not what i want..

srsly..

i am so tired..

i do enjoy sometimes..

but i just realise that..

may be in ur heart..

i am nt that important anymore..

don knw wat u are doing..

don knw wat u are thking..

don knw wat u want..

i am so tired of guessing..

may be u are tired of me too..

may be we are tired of each other..

why we still don wanna gv up?

why i still don wanna gv up?

why you still don wanna gv up?

WHY?

i need love from someone..

i want LOVE!

but i cant feel it anymoreee..

no more.. i cant feel it..

CANT feel..

what am i doing? what shud i do?

i don even knw do i still love u that much..

i don even knw do u still love me that muchh....

why u all like to gossip about me and danny?

wtv.. i don care!

What if

what if u are bored with ur relationship?

wat if u are bored with ur gf/bf?

what if u are tired of everything?

what if suddenly u wanna be single?

what if u don know whether do u still love him/her?

what if u don know is it possible for u and him/her to last forever?

what if u thk that he/she is not suitable for u?

what if there is so many what if?

am i doing the right thing?

i wonder.. why am i feeling so bad?

SORRY

SORRY..
i guess u guys are so angry cause of the invisible words..
it is invisible so no one else can see it..
i only wanted to express my feelings..
i cant be so good until ppl say bad thing about me and i don say out..

think of what u did to me.. think of how you "stress out"..
now i deleted the words.. without it, it seems ok rite?
i did not pollute anyone's mind.. i am just saying what i feel..

i regret for what i said..

but do u even feel any regret at all?

u don even thk that u did anything wrong..

sorry to you, your sister and to your friend..

as i said, i already made it invisible..

this is my blog, for me and no one else..

last time when u stress out..

u didnt even bother to make it invisible..

so do u thk that u hv any right to say about me?

To: Your Fren..

since you said that my fren don knw the true story.. but do u knw bout it? your true story is her version.. of coz to my fren my true story is my version.. but.. after they talked to her they are still supporting me.. do u even knw why? of coz everyone thks that they are right.. but when they knw they are wrong they shud feel regret for wat they hv done rite? whether u believe or not.. i do feel regret after i wrote those vulgar words.. sometimes eventhough u feel regret.. it cant really solve the thing.. BUT! if u didnt even feel anything wrong or regret.. omg!! how hurt will the person be?! rite? may be those invisible words are too much.. but isnt it the same thing for wat she did to me? i apologize again for wat i hv done.. i am so SORRY.. again to YOU, YOUR SISTER and YOUR FREN.. think again whether do u hv the right to accept my apology..

okay i am done..
ciaoz

I thought bout wat i said.. so yeah.. think again before u say :)

FRUSTRATED

hello my ex-fren..
this post is for you.. yeah you!
don get the freaking wrong idea..!!

hmmm... wat shud i say?
just telling you larh..

i didnt pollute anyone's mind..
didnt influence anyone..
they will knw who is the right one and the wrong one..
i didnt say u are the wrong one.. or i am the right one k?

and urmm..
u say everyone is like that..
i can say except for me and liean! haha!
yeah lorhh.. be yourself.. pls be good and freaking don gossip!
kip saying ppl's bad thing.. ltr your mouth....................
i do believe in karma.. do u? or u don even knw wat is karma?

i don like you.. u are damn right..

because..... better not write the reason if not u will say i am polluting ppl's mind..
wtv.. u feel comfortable with urself but others DONT..

that is the best i can be..
hating someone is tiring..
but i cant stop hating HER..
omg! help~~~~~~

kkk.. ciaoz..
ignore this post.. wtvvvv

I just don understand